I decided I would have to tell her in person.

I drove to Boston unannounced leaving at dawn the following Friday morning. The trip was long and the weather fair, but she deserved the truth. I arrived just before 10:00 AM, as the drive was just over three hours. I knew she had a class until 11:00 AM, so I decided to gather my thoughts.

The sad part was that she had been so supportive. How could I have been caught by the "Venus-Fly Trap" and broke our bond. I knew really not how or why I had let the events unfold, but I did. As I waited for her outside the science building; smoking a cigarette to calm my nerves, she saw me and rushed in a lunge toward me with a giant hug. Little did she know that I was about to break her heart in two.

We went downtown to a restaurant for breakfast. It took me a while but I finally broke the news.

I said it in the best lite possible, stating, "Samantha, I want to apologize in advance for what I am about to tell you. I have broken our trust. Not that we have had a formal arrangement in place, but I feel as though we have an incredible bond and you have supported me along this journey to "find myself" from Day 1. That being said, I want you to know that I slept with a woman in Montpelier. I haven't seen her since, as she left like a bad renter in the nite, but it happened. I felt compelled to tell you in person and that is why I am here."

The tears immediately started running down her face and her fork she dropped in mid air and slammed her coffee cup on the table. After a few more tears and regaining some composure, she started, "I too realize we are not an item, but we had something special. I was waiting for you to "find yourself" before entering formal partnership, as I knew not what you wanted to do and neither do you. And now this. And now, I am not so sure. I need some time."

She declined a ride back to the school and instead hailed a cab outside. I paid for breakfast and decided not to finish mine either.

I would simply return to Randolph.